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On the Eve of Independence

August 15, 2012

I have found myself saying, “I can’t believe how fast time has gone” more and more these past five years of being a parent. Almost to the point where I know I am annoying other people because I am annoying myself. But the truth is, it has gone fast. Tomorrow my first child… my little girl… my sweetie… is going to kindergarten.

Addi has given me the greatest gift I could have ever been given, the opportunity to be a father to a daughter. I’ve had to learn patience, how to remove a “piggy holder” without pulling hair, change a diaper, cry and not feel unmanly, love deeper than I ever have, and to understand and embrace change.

It is that last one that gets us all. It hits us deep. Our little ones aren’t so little. They aren’t so dependent. They are growing up and in a fast way.

It all hit me tonight. Maybe I internalized it, maybe I tried to avoid it, but it is here. As a parent none of us are really prepared, how could you? Until you have been through 12 weeks of sleep deprivation, spit up, mustard poop, crying (from all involved), when does the belly button fall off, and any other first time parent stresses, as a civilization we would have died off long ago if this thing came with a pre-test.

Those first 12 weeks of her life seem so distant now. She has changed, I have changed, our family has changed, our lives have changed.

Addi, I know you’ll do well, not just in kindergarten, but in life. Your sense of humor, your compassion, your competitiveness, your kind heart, your smile, will all serve you well. I have had the privilege of seeing you grow as a helpless infant into a classy and fabulous five year old who has helped her old man understand the importance and priority of things in life. You have given me an even greater love and respect for my parents, your mother, your brother, my sister, our entire family and friends, and that what we do in life means nothing, if we aren’t living for something greater than our own self.

When you get on the steps of that bus tomorrow and we wave as you head off on your next journey, don’t forget the thousands of amazing steps we have already taken in your first five years together. I only wish with every step you take, I could hold your hand, because it is so damn hard to let go.

I’m proud of you. I adore you. I love you Addi.
Dad

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7 comments

  1. Congratulations for being aware of Love and one of its many manifestations. Children are our best and truest showers of that great Love Energy and ourselves. I know because I have two beauties of my own and they give and reflect every moment. I enjoy them and am so grateful for their assistance with me getting to know me at my Highest; My Spirit.


  2. Well stated, as usual, Ike. Good luck on the first day! 🙂


    • Thanks Tracie! I hope things are going great for you!


  3. Dude seriously-why ya have to write stuff like this ha ha -it’s awesome but now I’m gonna be thinking bout this day and I have 2.5 years to go yet-not looking forward to it. Good stuff though man -she will enjoy reading it when she’s older. 🙂


    • Ha sorry man. Just hit me like a ton of bricks. Enjoy it now. Because before you know it you’ll be going all Michael Bay while editing her wedding video.


  4. Hey Cuz, well said. Brian leaves for college on Tuesday and it is bittersweet!


    • Thanks Buzz! Where is Brian headed?



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